Yeah I know.

I'm starting to sound pretty f***ing pathetic. I realize this. I'm done. Can you change the past? No. Can you control how others treat you? Nope. You can only change/control how you let the past/others affect you. And that is my pep talk for the day. I've been rather absent on the blogging front. I spent the last 2 hours trying to catch up on my regular reads. If I haven't gotten to yours yet, I apologize. My attention span is only so long. I know how you have missed my comments ;) Anyway, a couple of the blogs I read today had random lists. I love it. My turn. As I type this I'm eating champagne grapes. Yum! I now have a craving for a certain type of wine. Seeing as how I am too broke for said wine, how about a bottle of Asti? Sounds good to me! Speaking of broke . . . I made too much money last year to qualify for financial aid. So, I'm back to working two jobs and going to school. I now not only need to take care of this semester's bill, but there is also the 3K for next semester. Oh, and let's not forget the nearly $500 in books. Just call me broke ass. I just love how this great country makes it so hard to get an education. Makes so much sense. Here's an idea. Give me back the thousands of dollars I paid in taxes last year and let me finish my degree. I will be able to get a better job, make more money, and pay more taxes. Everybody wins, no? Currently debating whether to live with my brother and a friend next year OR move downtown alone. Brother and friend = huge apartment, save money, not be lonely, have to deal with two sloppy males, in my comfort zone, have someone else to walk Trek on occasion. Downtown = small apartment, super expensive, potential loneliness, my own space, independence, lots of social and cultural opportunity, doggy duty 7/365. Decisions. Trek is all better now. He thought it would be a good idea to steal a half a tray of spicy chicken - bones and all. Carpet cleaning, fasting, pedialite, keopeptate. Children. . . Going backpacking in Dolly Sods next weekend :) :) Spent WAY too much money at REI this past weekend for said backpacking trip. If I don't spoil me, who will?? Besides, I NEED that stuff. All of it. While driving today, I discovered I can now rest my arm comfortably on my stomach. Not good. I can swear I wasn't able to do that at the beginning of the summer. I'm not giving up chocolate, or pizza, or ice cream, or beer. Liposuction? Four friends called to check-in on me today. I love nice people. Getting together to go kayaking with Kjersten this weekend. Sure to be disastrous fun - the story of my life. Haven't started on the two chapters I need to have read by Thursday. Must master the art of speed reading. I've gotten out of the habit of carrying my camera everywhere I go. I am kicking my own ass for all the photo ops I've missed. Camera is back in my purse with fully charged batteries. Spent some time organizing my scrapbooking stuff. Haven't scrapbooked a thing. Haven't heard a word from "you know who" about his flight to come see me - probably a good thing. Not probably, it IS a good thing. Refer to earlier pep talk - stay strong. People can not drive - with me being the only exception. $2.99 is still expensive ass gas. Especially since I use the mid-grade, drive 45 miles each way to and from school, and I'm broke!!! "I'm broke bitch! I'm doing the best I can!" Sound familiar? Found out that I will save over $500 dollars a year once I turn 25 on car insurance. Woo- hoo!!! Then I get college grad and teacher discounts this summer. Oh yeah baby! Who said getting old was all bad? Spent less than $50 at Target. See, I DO have self control. I have an awesome weekend lined up (except for the work part). Woot woot! Alright, I do believe I have a stomach to feed and a bottle of Asti to purchase. Smiley for the Day: